Im definitely at the intersection. The 2 board-directions seem to offer me to cross the 2 different bridges of mystery. Mystery because there is fog covering the bridges. Mystery that can only be revealed when im eventually cross the bridge, through the fog.
These pas few months, ive been preparing myself to follow my dream. Im so excited, confident. I believe in my dream n trust God. Everything is just a step away, to cross that bridge. Extremely, now the situation has made me so worried, unsecure, and hopeless. Which is why there is another new bridge. This moment has made me realize that im clueless, panic, confuse and yet excited a little bit. The new bridge will bring me to the same new adventure as the other bridge. The point is, i have no idea which bridge to cross between these 2. And I dont know which bridge that God wants me to cross. The time is keep on ticking!
The first bridge is where ive been working on for the past few months, to chase my dream. To have a new adventure, to go out of the moon, to really depend on God that He will make my dreams come true. While, with this dream, ive lost my chances to travel to 2 different countries for these couple of months. Im also in a risk to loose my favorite things in my life. But if this dream was meant to happen, it’s worth it, priceless and more than everything. But now, frankly im so afraid that this dream may not working for me. Im so scared and worried that if my dream wont come true i’ll be start all over again from the beginning. I dont want that to happen. Which is why i have another bridge.
The other bridge sounds great too and comforting. I would have my ordinary life plus another new adventure too. But if choose this bridge, i wont see my dream come true, even though i’ll probably get to challenge myself too in my new adventure. But, I will stay and live as the usual way.
What im sure is that both bridges lead me to another leap of faith.
So i pray that any bridge that i will cross, may God’s will in my life will be true. He knows the best for me, perhaps He’s smiling at the clueless-me. So i will obey God to cross the bridge, to walk thru the fog untill i see things clearly and finally smiling at the past clueless-me.
:: When i do not have faith to cross the other side of the bridge, -I never there- ::
:: When I just can not see what God will provide you in the end of this journey, -I never will- ::
:: When I simply can not trust God that He will protect me, lead me and guide me inside the fog, I’ll never experience His Grace, His love n His Presence ::
Believing everything is gonna be great and just do it! Faith, Hope and Love.
I know that God has been preparing all the best things for me. Not the 2nd best choice, but simply the best. Im looking forward to fly with God, as im going to see extraordinary things come in my life.